Desperate like me times three
Dark idol of my jealousy
I called you out embodied Erinyes
Thought I knew what you were all about
Your self cursed first impressions at the Thanksgiving feast
Daughter of Bacchus at the wholesome table
Fallen far from Aphrodite's cradle
Conceived in a chthonic desert grove of cacti
You mothered one of my own
Among the rattlesnakes and mescal
I could of been you by three degrees
I drink wine alone heavily
Finger self destruction before and eventually
Knock on the door of heaven or hell depending
I could of been you easily, refuse all judgment
Desperate to paint, recreate Fate
Make Beauty from childhood chaos
Merry masochist marry Narcissus, son of a passivist
And birth sweet February princess of Prudence
Temperance's final week was peace on earth, your illusion
Then steal her away like Hades down a bullet river
Our darling, emerald eyed wonder sacrifice
Full cheeked smile pure laughter
You should of been mine
Twin of my daughter
Survive another story longer
More like me mammal in the water
You both left us like riddles in stain glass windows
Feeling alien, disconnected like non believers in an ancient cathedral of a far off culture
Without right, in selfishness
Your madness I would of carried, levied
The lead weight poisoning, carrying you down the abyss w/o hope of a shore
Devoured by the demon bull of your soul
Labyrinth thoughts, a ball of string all tangled up
You trapped her in your Minotaur maze, mother gaze
No hero could spare
No angels allowed to care
Kinswoman grief I bare
Desperate like me times three
Embodied Furies wearied of this vengeance oath
This is just a space for little things I need to write, like stream of consciousness ramblings that purge myself of silly things that might come up and out during the day (or night).
About Me
- Kathy (杜 言 艷)
- I just returned back to the States after 11 years in Taiwan with my daughter. Taiwan is an excellent base for us explore Asia, while living in relative (gun free) safety, while benefiting from a cheap and efficient national health care system. The people are amazing too. I have Taiwanese friendships that are 20 years old and I'm always making new ones! My coworker here in CO is from Taiwan.